Sunday, December 28, 2008

it's a new year in islamic calendar

today is 29 december 2008, three days to new year. However, in Islamic Calendar, today is a new year, 1 Muharram 1430H. There's something that i pray and wish for that i can't fulfill.

Awal Muharram is supposed to be a new platform ofr everybody.. so do i.. so i don't think i have to wait until 2009 appear. I'm praying that i will be a better muslim, wife, mother and daughter to all related people in my life.

2008 - the achievement?
- what can i write for the achievement? What's there for me to get it done when it was early 2008? But 2008 can be considered as my stress year. I have lots of things that i depressed of.. my works .. my life that i've got so much to do yet i couldn't do it... but the end of the 2008 is quite brightful..

2008 - i've been for an oversea trip for the first time and counting ... i've been to korea in May and Hk in November. The holidays were the most unforgettable memories in my life. Both of the visits were specials. Korea - that's where i want to go - the most, HK - that's where we did our travel on our own . we depends on ourselves and i was very happy coz no matter where we went, we still can perform our prayers as best as we could.

2008- spiritual - i felt quite bored with my works and workplace. I hate it the most when i've to do something against my principle. Even though, i went for an interview at the end of the year, still i haven't decide where to go. Ya Allah! Please guide me.


2009 - anticapations:

What's the main thing i'm anticipating for this coming new year?

1. To have better working spirit - no matter where i choose
2. To save lots of money -hoping that this year we won't spend money uselessly
3. This year - i'm planning to visit :
January - Bukit tinggi on 10th, Kuching on 17th and Azrah's birthday on 25th
February - nothing scheduled yet - but i'm planning to stay at home for the whole month and it's our anniversary
March - Singapore if possible
April - Nothing in my schedule. Maybe somewhere near
May - went back to Terengganu for the first time in this year
June - Stay at home and it's wan's birthday
July - I really want to go to Bandung, is it possible?
August - it's already fasting month and it's my birthday and harris's
September - Hari Raya - a lot to spend
October - hopefully that i can go to Mecca this year. Haji Akbar is expected this year. Insya Allah - Amin.
November - In Mecca - Insya Allah
December - Nothing Scheduled yet - maybe to Terengganu.

and it's already a year ....

4. I pray to have a good health this year
5. I hope that my kids will be very obedient and healthy this year
6. I hope that our family will be happy forever
7. I plan to buy new house this year
8. I plan and pray to perform Haji this year - Insya Allah
9. I plan to have better job this year
10. I plan to finish at least 2 of my stories... Insya Allah...

2008 - i did a lot of thinking during this year. I got the answer for some of it, i am still thinking for the most of it and i don't even have a clue for few of it... how tough.

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

Tgh menyibukkan diri

Sunday morning, while i was writing my Kisah Adam, suddenly my daughter came and said

"Mama, Kak Ani (my maid) nangis."
I wonder why. I never scold her until she's crying. Still wondering, i asked her.

While sobbing, she answered " Kakak saya meninggal, kak!"

I was speechless, then i just left her in her room still sobbing and talking to her relative in Medan.

My two kids try to so called 'comfort her' by staying by her side. I didn't know what to do. So i just let her be by herself and tried to bring the kids out of her room. But they refused. so i just let them be. In the afternoon, while she was already calm, i asked her.

"Ani nak balik ke?" she said never mind kak.

that evening, azrah got piano concert, i tried to asked her to go together, she refused, so i just leave her at home.

Azrah performed at 7.40 pm. Before the performing, she forgot her introduction speech, and she went like this

"My name is Azrah ...." she stopped and sighed "Mmmm"
She started once again " Hello, everybody, i am azrah ...." and again she stopped and sighed
"mmmmm ..... Hello everybody, i am azarh, today i'm gonna play twinkle - twinkle little star" finally she said with my help of course, while she's staring at my lips movement. Then she performed it solo. How sweet. Unfortunately, i didn't capture it in video format. they were only pictures. But i will post it later.

Then we went to have dinner, Azrah chose the place of course. We had siakap stim, tomyam, sotong celup tepung, kerabu mangga and telur dadar. We got back at home at 9 pm. When we arrived, Ani was nowhere to be found, before Azrah came and told me, "K Ani nangis lagi mama". So i went to her room and once again, i asked her whether she wanted to go back or not. She said no need, so i offered to sent her to her aunt's house in SA, also she rejected it. She said, she gonna go there this weekend after all. so i just let her be. I went to read my new bought Jemari seni novel Tunas and it was then my husband called me.

"Pergilah tanya Ani, kot dia nak balik."
"Saya baru lepas tanya dia, dia kata tak nak."
"Pergilah tanya balik, dia ada kat luar tu."

So i got up and got her.

"Ani nak balik ke?"
"Boleh ke kak?"
"Kalau Ani nak balik, bolehlah."
"Seminggu pun jadilah kak."
"Tapi mungkin naik feri je lah sebab tiket kpl terbang takut dah mahal."
"Tapi saya mahu pinjam duit kak."
"Iyelah, takpelah, akak bagilah."

So my husband called her aunt in SA , asked about the ferry from klang to Medan, it will take 7 hours costing RM2++ return. So i asked my husband to checked the airasia ticket. There's Monday's morning ticket, will depart at 8.30am from LCCT and will be coming back from Medan on 30th. It cost RM594. I told her about the fare and promise to pay for her half of the fare, she agreed. I bought it and told her. I asked her to pack since she supposed to check in at 6.30am the following morning. she just nodded. I asked my husband to withdraw the money she needed and change it to rupiah. It was 10.00 at the time we were busily discussed and acted. The following morning my husband sent her to LCCT and i tooak an EL for that day.

So for the past 2 days, i've been occupying myself with house chores and office works. House chores that i seldom do since we got maid, like mopping the floor, doing the dishes, clean up and all sort of that kind of works. It's tiring me. So i couldn't even touch my blog at all.

i'm thinking, is it possibble for me to finish my Kisah Adam plus I got a stock take scheduled to be done on Jan 2, Interim Audit Jan 5, and Final Audit Feb 2. Shalalla. so i will try my best on everything. at least my life is living at this end of the year. I'm smiling because i am busy even to feel bore.

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

Pros n Cons

I wrote this entry in the middle of writing my Kisah Adam. While i was writing it, Harris came, he purposely said something that i never allow him to say. At the same time i was thinking was it because he never been to school? so i was thinking the pros n the cons of having maid at home.

pros:

1. The house will always clean/neat
2. I don't need to think about chores
3. We can ask for meals anytime


Cons:
1. I'm not sure what she taught my kids at home
2. i'm not sure how she treated my kids
3. And most importantly how do i know who's she has friend with.

And i am very angry right now. I've been receiving calls from unknown man who wants to talk to my maid's friend. How did he knew my number? And i don't have a place to shout it out!

i really feel like retiring now! Arrrghhhh.

Monday, December 15, 2008

Harris oh harris




He was scolded again last night. He purposely pulled azrah's hair in order to grab her new year calendar. He ignored my words when i asked him to return one of the calendar to azrah. In return he had been scolded by his abah.

Before that, as soon as i arrived home, he told me that he hurt himself while playing at the playground. He bruised his knee. it's hard for him to fold his leg afterwards. Poor my little Harris.

It's harris day. he didn't allow me to hug him since he said that i might hurt his knee. Oh my dear Harris.

This morning, he still asleep went i got out from home, as soon as i arrived at my carpark, he cried from the balcony, he asked me many times where am i going. i replied him that i'm going to work. But he just keep asking while crying. Finally he asked for car riding. It's hurt to see him crying in the early morning, so i agreed while glance to the clock. it's almost 8. My office hour start at 8.15. I've got 15 minutes extended time from the official office hours. It took me 20-30 minutes to reach office. So just gamble it. I brought him around the block. He seems okay when i leave him at 8.05am.

Sunday, December 14, 2008

Tak nak tukar kerja!!!

i really don't understand myself... i neither want to stay at my current workplace nor the new offered workplace. The reason why:

current workplace:
- too many politics
- the works became dull

new:
- i don't want to start all over again
-i'm not in the good mood to work anymore.

Please, help me.

i'm bored!

Tengah Membusykan diri

I am currently trying to occupy myself with writing. I'm in the mood right now. My husband did complain why did i only write early and end of the year? Maybe that's the best time i got the idea. it's monsoon season by the way. It's cold.

i promised myself to at least try to finish kisah adam. Can i make it before the end of the year?

Last Raya Haji, My back and chest felt uncomfortable. i went to KTS and the doctor said that my fourth rib is not okey. it might be swollen or something. but i had difficulties in sleeping and sitting. So the doctor shot me with the injection. It's better, but still i felt not so good. Why at the age of 30 i got so many illness. i will try to do more exercise later on...

Friday, December 12, 2008

summary of the week

went back to terenganu on 7th december, a day before celebrating eid-adha. The traffic was smooth until we entered Kemaman, up until Dungun, the traffic was quite slow. We departed at 10am from our apartment in seri Kembangan and reached my parents house at 8pm... it's quite a long journey. 10 hours. Azrah asked me why didn't we took flight... it's faster. i told her .. it's not quite practical during monsoon season and hari raya. There would be lots of thing to be brought.

During the trip, it was raining all days until we reached Dungun. Even the temperature dropped down to 24 degree celcius at noon in Pahang area.

At first i planned to spend the whole week there, however i got a call from PASB on Tuesday asked me to come for an interview... i asked for friday.. it's the last day of working days there. so i could spend more hours in Trg.

The interview, post and changing workplace... i'm tired of those. i hope this would be the last.. i'm retiring soon. i've already gave my husband a year notice to it... i really want to enjoy spending time with the kids and writing. My husband keep asking me, when will i write the novel. do it. i will !! i really want to at least finish one work. They're lots of authors nowadays... so i have to work hard. i really admire syud, hlovate and k su... they wrote nice stories and fresh.. i liked their writing style very much especially Syud's Tentang Dhiya ( i read for 5 times already), K Su's SUUN (more than 5) Hlovate's 5 tahun 5 bulan (uncounted). Currently i'm addicting to fanfiction at soompi... some were great. ignored the grammaticals errors... since i myself not that good.

Back to the week summary, i came back to selangor on 11th.. arrived at 2am..we departed from Kt at 4pm... we bought tart nangka on the way back.. it was so good. went to the interview the next day... at 3pm... wan, helped me with the intro speech. he drove me to the PASB.. both of us had a very little sleep last night.. i'm attached to Panggil aku Dahlia. K Su's new work. I'm nort really in the mood to attend interview, cahnging job etc... but since i'm already bored at that place plus the offer is quite great, might as well just grabbed it for the finishing. i really want to retire. 2010 is my goal. hopefully, i can make it.

Saturday, November 29, 2008

Do u know why i lost my patience?

There were lots of incidents that made me lost my patience recently. I start with the incident while i was in HK.

I changed my maybankard 2 days before i left for HK. it's a Debit Card. Once i received my Debit Card, the personnel in charge just ask me to change my pin number only, without gave me any pamphlet or instructions on how to use the Debit Card. I've deposited half of my expenses for HK into the accounts seems they said it safer and can be used anywhere throughout the world. They also assured me that i can withdraw my money anywhere i want as long as they got the PLUS sign. I'm very confident about the guarantee.

While we were in HK, i tried to withdraw my money through lots of local and international ATMs. But they couldn't read my card. The machine shown the message of please contact the card provider. After few trials, i decided on making call to Maybankard Centre in KL using the provided number for oversea. My brand new Samsung SGH U-700 also challenged my patience.. once i pressed the button for the next menu, the call ended. It's an overseas call. how many times need i to make that call. My husband, knowing that i'm gonna explode anytime on that moment, decided to call the centre using his hp. Fortunately he made it. But definitely the customer service personnel need to speak directly with me. He said that i had to activate my international usage first before i can use it. Sarcastically, i answered, the personnel in charged never tell me that i have to. Do they think i knew how the bank and the card work? Did she think that i'm also working with the bank, fortunately the customer service personnel could handle me. Thanks Mr Harris. He said that he could activate it for me so that i can use it after 10 minutes. After asking more or less about my personal details and accounts, he asked me whether i want to activate it temporarily or permanently. i answered straight away .. without thinking ... permanently... why i have to activate it every time i'm going out of country ... am i crazy? just to spend my money on the phone bills? ok ... it's not the end with my new Maybank Debit Card. Wait ... while i realizing it ... It's a Maybank Debit Card ... and Maybank is a Malaysian Company. But i wonder why the Debit Card itself illustrated with the Cherry picture? Why not Durian? Why not Mangosteen or Rambutan?

Ok back to my precious Maybank Debit Card story. I finally succeed to withdraw my money. After three days in HK city we went to Disneyland HK at Lantau Island. The first attempt to use my Debit Card was a failure.The Cashier needed to try for few times before the transactions succeed. The next transactions ... remain a failures. So i ended up could use the Debit Card 3 times only while i was in HK. Before the withdrawal issue, i tried to use it when i bought a brooch at Jacky Chan's Jewellery Store, but it couldn't be read. I ended up using my Direct Access CCard. But fortunately, when i went to Hard Rock Cafe HK, the transaction succeed. So the total of usage through my worldwide accepted Debit Card were 3 times only.

For continuous great services from Maybank, i deposited some money through a CDM at a petrol station in BB Bangi. it resulted of the machine went out of service as soon as i put my money into the machine without printing my receipt. I called the Maybankcard Centre again for this month, he said that they might take 3-7 working days. i said .. it's my money ... why must u take so long to give my money back! i want it on monday. i need to use that money plus it's not a small amout. He didn't give my case id ... my husband also called the bank centre to get the cse id ... but definitely they won't allow it... he said that he will call me directly to give my case id .. but he didn't until i made a call back to get it. On Monday i called once again ... i said i want that money asap. i asked for the direct contact no for the person in charge. He said he didn't have it, he said that he will follow up for me, i said it's not ur money .. i knew very well how maybank works when it's come to custome's matter. i will follow up my money by myself. He said that he didn't have the contact no, i said i'll call him back at the afternoon. i want my money by today!!.
But i didn't call him since i checked my account, the money is still not there, i was also tired of fighting with them ... the first thing i did when i was in the office the next day, i called the bank centre again. this time the person in charge, MAS said that the bank is still not operated yet, she will call me at 11 to update me. fine, i'll wait i said. 11 Sharp, i received a call from MAS mentioned that the CDM did face some problem, the technician nedd to go to the petrol station CDM to get the report manually, the report should be received by 4. she promised t call me back at 4. Fortunately she did, same as before exactly at 4 pm she called, said that money did stucked there, and will be deposited to my account by tonite but i only can use it by tomorrow at 7am. i thanked her not because of the service but because of her accuraccy. Thanks MAS. But i did dissapointed with MAYBANK

i think i have to work on my anger management

my patience has come almost to the limit. Pardon me if i sound like ... like what? i'm not sure... i tried so many times to edit my HK trip entry .. especially the photos order ... but it seems not working or ended up all my photos disappeared... so i decided to just leave it like that ... so please forgive me if the photos didn't synchronized with my stories after this...

the stories... maybe i'll type it tonite or later .. depends on my mood and this pc... the internet really gonna kill my patience...

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

Picnic at Pangsun on 23 Nov 2008

I will skip the HK trip entry for a while. until i feel right to continue it... for the time being i just want to write about our picnic at Sg Pangsun, Ulu langat held on Sunday - 23 Nov 2008.

It was participated by whole accounts department staffs and families together with few Productions staffs and families. They were 6 families with 6 bachelors joint the picnic. The picnic was great. The water is so clear and nice. As soon as we reach there my son went straight away into the water. He enjoyed it very much . We grilled some lambs, chickens and fishes. There were lots of foods on that day. Everybody contributed something for the picnic. We reach the picnic area at 9 am. We left at 2pm.

My kids enjoyed the water very much. most of the kids did. i never imagine that there's a picnic area not for from here. and it's great. I forgot to bring my camera.. so i'm waiting for other colleagues if they snapped something on that day.. i'll make sure i won't forget to bring the camera again... it's a lost for me...

we planned to go to Bukit Tinggi on 10 january 2009. But unfortunately only one apartment with 2 bedrooms available. we just grabbed it. it something than nothing. so until the next event ... just wait...

Arrghh

actually i wrote 4 paragraphs of HK Trip 12-16 Nov entry. but it ended up dissappeared.. so i'm not in the mood to rewrite something for that entry... so until i feel like doing it ... just wait

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Hong Kong Trip 12-16 Nov 2008












































































It's been more than a week after we came back from HK. I'm not really in mood to write actually, that's the reason of kept delaying this entry. I have no particular reason of not being in mood. just like too lazy and have no idea to write.











Saturday, November 8, 2008

Conversations between us

I still heavy with emotion thinking about this fiction. It's great. i'm not pretty sure about the author. i don't know who is he/she. but what i can say is the story is great. i started to read it at office. and i just couldn't stop reading it until the office hours ended. i continued at home. i finally finished it at 2am. but why must the hero died? but i did expected it from the beginning, but the story was too good for me to stop in the middle so, i continued reading it even though i can assume the ending. the plot and storyline were great. i can felt the characters' emotions.

i just can imagine the whole story, if it is going to be fillmed i will watch it again even though i read about it once. i think i can read it one more time, but i've to prepare to cry. yesterday i just hold my emotion, i cried but still under control. i watched this kdrama once it's quite the same but totally different. The Tree in heaven. the hero also a gangster and ended up to be killed. aah.

do u understand the feeling after u finished watching or reading something. it's ended. i felt empty inside. i felt very quiet around me even though there are lot of peoples around. it will take at least a week before i return to my normal self... until then....

my dream house

ahahhha ... 2-3 years back, i never imagine to visit showroom of a house amounting RM500k. even few weeks back, i did tell my husband let's buy house ranging 200-300K. but last week we've visited one semi-d house area our current house. It got 5 rooms with 3 bathrooms. but last week we didn't know the price. today, we went back to that house, snapping pictures and looking around. Before we left, we found one house with the owner's number. He wanted to sell it at RM550K. my husband called his friend who just bought a new house cost RM6++K. He took RM500K loan. It will cost him RM3500/mth for 30 years. It's accumulated to RM1.2M. Wow!!!! My husband said the area is nice and house worth that price, if we like it so much, he'll take it. Afterwards we supposed to buy new compass for our trip next week, on the way to the shop we found one corner lot they wanted to sell it at RM350K and they said they got another one smaller than the one we saw with the price of RM250K. maybe it's sound cheap but i think even the space must be smaller. Our current apartment got 5 rooms with three bathrooms. we used to live with a lot of rooms, so it will be uncomfortable to live in the small house. so we passed through Jusco before i saw new signboard of new launch house. we called them. it's phase three, the person in charged said that the phase three has not been launched yet, but they still got phase one that is going to be finished by early of next year. the cost is RM548K. They got 6 rooms and 6 bathrooms. we were shocked after hearing it. 6 rooms and 6 bathrooms? 40'x80'. Wow!!! ...the cost is almost the same with the one we just saw. But their show room had close for today. so we can visit tomorrow. but we're around the area, we decided to see the house. the first route to the house was closed. so we try another route and house is awesome!! i'll snap the pictures tomorrow. it's gorgeous. looks exclusive. so RM548K is not questionable. since the door was already closed, i peeked through the windows and sliding door, the hall is long, and they got attached kitchen , i thought that's the only kitchen they have, but i went back to the backyard and found out they also got another kitchen-separated with door, they also got one more room behind and a bathroom. i went back to the front, to find out that they also got another room with attached bathroom. i'll see upstairs tomorrow. i'll post the picture until then.

alam sanctuary semi-d (6 rooms 6 bathrooms + 1 store)


second floor hall second floor


bedroom no 2 & 3 - second floor


bathrooms for bedrooms no 2&3 second floor


bathroom - master bedroom


master bedroom - equal to 2 bedrooms size at current apt


maid bathroom & bedroom



i managed to snapped only these pictures since i took them w/out permission. but the interior was awesome, that we're currently thinking how to buy that house.

PUJ 9 - 5 bedrooms 3 bathrooms


Bandar Seri Putra - 6 bedrooms 5 bathrooms