Wednesday, July 28, 2010

bye2 bhd 7401 ... welcome wue 386

Never thought that leaving BHD 7401 is gonna be this hard. In the first place, i've never thought that i would sell or trade in this car ... kelisa limited edition is such a great car .... never create any problem to me ... and never cost me so much in maintaining it ... but because of finance issue, i have to let the car go... came to think about it, i never have any photo of it .. oh so sad .. why didn't i snapped one before leaving it this morning? my dear blue and black kelisa ....

bought in April 2004, met the first accident couple months after wards ... the car only had a scratch while the Honda City need to replace it back bumper ... using it to work since working from home, in Bdr Sri Permaisuri and lastly to Bangi, you have accommodate me very well...

welcome new Viva Elite WUE 386 ... such a nice no... hopefully we will great together .... but i've miss BHD7401 already ....

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

Harris's Dictionary

My sisters keep on suggesting me to create a dictionary of Harris's words .... he is really into speaking english at the moment ... maybe tv n internet influence .. i can see that .. he is as good as his sister ... do not compared with their mom ... Their mom is the worst in english in this house... however ... he is still cannot pronounce it properly ... even malay words.... sometimes i've faced difficulty in understanding what he's trying to say or compliment or ask ... i keep on laughing after i got to know what he really means ... Normally Azrah will be my transalator .. since she spends more time having conversation with each other or sometimes acting together ....

These are parts of his words that i couldn't forget :

1. " mama, air oren hepti ke tak?" - healthy

2. " eh rek berel kakak?" - is that better

3. " i wooon it" - i found it

4. " mama, tgk adik roop jumping" - rope jumping

But, his fav word will always awesome. He loves to compliment mama and abah the most .... and he always ask ... the meaning of every single word he curious in mandarin .... and normally abah will answer anything that popped into his mind....

With Mama, when he's in the good mood : "Hello mama yang cantik, Harris Sayang." i will hear this sentence every now and then probably around 10-20 times a day ....

but when he's at the nursery , normally he would cry most of the times ....

Harris has a cute, cheerful, sweet but rough characters .... he's indeed a great son ... i miss him when he's not with me .... but scold him when he's around ....

but i love him as much as i love his sister ....

Monday, July 19, 2010

azrah & harris tengah shopping kat kedai dua ringgit

wah wah wah ... bestnye diorg ... g shopping aje kalau dgn abahnya .... mama x kuasa nak layan bwk shopping ... kalau duk rumah ngan mama .. kejap2 mama bising suruh kemas tu kutip tu ambik tu ... kalau ngan abah .. suke ati diorg je la... tunggu la mama balik keje karang sure pusing kepala tgk rumah x macam rupa rumah .... adehhh

rindunya nak balik duk rumah gaduh ngan dua budak kecik tu ...

Friday, July 16, 2010

Azrah : Why people change Mama?

Semalam, azrah meluahkan rasa hati, kata dia : "Azrah rindu sangat Aishah mama (kawan lamanya masa umur 6 tahun), Dulu Aishah dan Azrah attend tadika yg sama, bila Darjah Satu, Aishah dan Azrah sekolah lain2... tu yang Azrah sedih sangat ...

Azrah tanya lagi, "Mama sekarang umur 32, abah 33, nanti mama dengan abah pun berubah ke?"
"Kita akan berubah Azrah, we're getting older every day."

"Sayu sangat sebab rasanya baru je lagi Azrah g attend Kindergarten, tup-tup skarang dah nak habis darjah dua... macam x percaya ... sedih pun ye, sebab she's getting older dan semakin banyak yg dia nak tahu. Risau kalau2 dia rasa dia bersendirian je tanpa sahabat utk berkongsi cerita ... so aku kena spend lebih masa dgr apa dia nak cakap, apa dia nak tanya .. apa dia nak tahu dan apa dia punya agenda...

Sesi luahan rasa Harris pulak, kisah budak kat nursery yg lebih kecik dr dia tp sgt suke membuli dia... Harris2... Harris should be stronger dear ... x boleh selalu nangis dan biar org buat harris...

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

Kerap pulak menulis lately & dlm BM lak tu

semalaman x leh tido baca blog Fatimah AzZahra punya pasal.. hehheh ... dan sakit tekak yg makin teruk.. kaki kanan saya pun makin sakit dan asyik kebas2 ... sejak2 pergi melawat muhidi@eddy kat KPJ Kajang sebab ketumbuhan dalam tulang, saya jadi cuak je... baik pergi check betul2...

Saya dah tersilap rupanya ... ingatkan saya baca blog jah, rupanya saya baca blog padi.... sian dia... anak bongsu yg bile dewasa sume org lain sudah punye keluarga dan dia rasa sgt terpinggir ... padi ... moga bertemu bahagia yg dicari...

tekak saya sakit .... skarang dah kul 1 dan saya blum ke klinik .. kalau x dpt mc pun saya akan EL je...

Tetibe je teringat .. En Izwan pernah kata .. kalau dpt buat training nanti .. dia nak duk terengganu... mcm best je.. tapi saya perlu ingat .. keutamaan dia anak lelalki ialah ibu bapanya .. maka saya x rasa itu idea yg baik...

dulu pun saya selalu berangan nak suruh dia cari keje luar Malaysia ... tapi rasanya Allah punya perancangan yg lebih baik ... sbb tu belum pernah berjaya ... saya rasa biarlah dia di sini .. sekurang2nya ada masa bila mak atau papa call utk mita bantuan ... dia ada di sini .... sementara masih boleh berbakti...

Tapi saya rasa baik ke Seremban atau ke Terengganu kami perlu pulang lebih kerap ....

Tekak saya sakit ... cukupla ... nak tunggu zuhur dan keluar ke klinik dgn En Izwan yg dr blk keje pagi tadi x tdo2 sebab dah jumpa hobi baru .. mengukir..... good for him ... so dia x rase sunyi atau ape2 yg berkaitan .. saya rasa saya nak menjahit la.. weekend ni.. heheh tapi rumah byk brg nak di kemas..

My story

Ni setelah baca blog jah .... saya rasa saya x nak baca the last song ok! ... dah cukup byk air mata ni ...

Like Jah did .. i really want to share about my story with abah n mak...

Saya ingat zaman kecik2 dulu balik kota bharu mmg best, abah akan selalu bawak kitorang beli makanan dan macam2 kat pasar tani wakaf che yeh ( skarang dah naik taraf jadi pasar borong)

Abah .. pada saya dia tak pernah gagal hantar / jemput anak dia ke/pulang dr sekolah .... sampai skarang pun .. cucu2 masih dihantar dan dijemput abah ...

Dulu abah mengajar kat sekolah padang nenas ... dan setahu saya abah dari cikgu biasa sehingga menjadi guru besar memang sangat disenangi orang ...

abah ajar macam2 lagu unik yg abah reka sendiri ...


Dari form 1 sampai form 3 , saya duk umah, pergi sekolah awal, hari2 abah akan masakkan air panas utk saya mandi ... dan abah akan temankan saya tunggu van kat tepi jalan besar form 1 -2, form 3 van dtg ambik kat dpn rumah ...

masa dpt result pmr saya teruk kena marah dgn abah sbb Matematik dapat B, maka saya belajar sungguh2 sampai dapat A1 masa SPM, masa SPM bila tunjuk je result kata abah (abah tengah tido kat beranda tunggu saya balik ambik result), abah terus bangun dan ambik duit RM100 bg kat saya ..

persediaan nak pegi UUM, abah yg bawak saya g shopping beli barang (masa tu ade stesen bas lama - tepi2 tu ade gerai2... i like the stalls very much.) Banyak benda abah yg pilihkan

masa form 4 - for the first two weeks saya belum dpt asrama, abah hantar saya every day ke sekolah yang jauhnya mengambil masa 45 minit perjalanan. bertolak dr rumah selepas subuh, abah blk balik, ambik adik2 yg lain dan htr ke sekolah sblm abah pun ke sekolah ...

abah came every week to see me at hostel...

masa belajar kat uum ... abah akan masukkan duit utk saya (walaupun kdg2 duit mak) tapi abah yg akan pergi ke bandar .... (so sekarang saya mesti ingat tjawab saya setiap bulan sebelum mereka tanya - jarang sekali abah tanya sebenarnya)

saya masih ingat masa kat na belajar kat SIF ... abah teman kak na naik bas depan simpang awal2 pagi... every day ...

sampai sekarang .. every time balik, abah will be the one who will ask. Nor nak makan pende pagi esok? Every nite .... and every morning ... our fav food were ready on the table bile kitorang bangun ....

hari tu (bulan April) bila abah datang dan batuk teruk sebab duk lama dalam bas, saya tak dapat bayangkan perasaan abah sepanjang perjalanan itu ... dan saya tekad... he shouldn't visit us here anymore... we should return and visit him more often ...

Tapi saya seronok sebab satiap kali raya saya akan belikan baju yg best2 utk abah, dan abah x pernah x pakai .... saya bangga sangat ... ade satu baju tu saya ingat lagi saya beli masa saya kat matrix uum .. harga dia murah je.. xde brand pun .. tapi smapai koyak pun abah jahit balik dan masih pakai ... it was 15 yrs old shirt .... i am really touch every time i saw abah's wearing it...

for me abah taught me so many thing indirectly ...

1. abah mmg buat filing utk semua benda , sampai skarang statistik perbelanjaan bil bulanan masih abah buat .... sbb tu saya sedikit organize dlm buat keje ...
2. abah x ambik pot pasal org ... so saya sgt thankful sbb saya x suke menyibuk pasal org ....
3. we plan our day ... saya pun akan buat list kalau nak g byr bil atau nak g bank .. make sure sume sempat as per planned ...
4. saya juga suke membebel dan cepat naik antu macam abah .... tapi kami pun senang cool down ...
5. Saya pun rasa saya sgt cerewet . sian org2 di sekeliling saya ... (rasanya abg mat is the most cerewet person kalau bab baju kat rumah tu) . ahhaha ..

Apa pun .. abah lah org yg menjadi role model saya ...

Mak ...

masa tadika saya akan meraung dna panjat gerigi besi kat tadika kemas sampai mak dah masuk skolah ....

masa sekolah rendah ... saya ikut je mana mak saya mengajar .... mak saya cikgu kelas saya dr darjah 4-6 ... ahhaha jgn jeles ...


saya rasa dr saya form 1 - form 3 , mak akan buat air milo every day ... ade mee goreng kdg kala .. atau nasi goreng ...

form 4-5 ... mak akan bawak nasi goreng ngan keropok lekor tiap kali visit saya kat hostel... kdg saya terkilan sikap saya masa tu ... selfish.. nak jugak suruh mak abah dtg walau diorg sibuk.... sorry mak dan abah ...

duk uum ... mak akan masukkan duit setiap bulan sampai saya dapat loan .. jadi once saya dpt loan sampai hbs belajar saya sgt bangga sbb saya x penah mintak duit mak lagi ... tapi bile start keje .. co yg saya keje byr gaji saya lambat .. dan duit saving say pun dah hbs... saya x mintak.. tp mak mcm tau

saya rasa mak mmg ade special telepathy ... walau saya x cerita apa2 dia tau bile masa saya tengah frust .. bile masa saya ade prob ... and she used to motivate me most of the time

masa saya beranak .. mak saya jaga saya .. x lama tapi at least mak jaga

sekarang .. saya rasa mak is too old to do house chores and to be worried about the kids.... sbb tu saya x penah cite ape2 lagi kat mak pasal saya (kalau saya ada masalah)

dan bila mak say risau masa saya cakap nak berenti ... saya tau apa mak fikir.. tapi saya terpaksa demi anak2 ... saya x nak anak2 saya hanyut di zaman moden ini ... insya Allah moga ade rezeki saya ...

Mak selalu sakit... saya pun ... ade je sakit saya tapi Alhamdulillah ... x teruk ...s akit biasa2 je...

Saya hanya mampu berdoa ... moga akan diringankan beban mak ... kesian kat mak ngan abah kena fikir macam2 ...

kesimpulannya ... mak n abah have their +ve n -ve side ... but they are the person who brought us to this world, they raise us, feed us, educate us and love us... tapi bile mereka tua ... they still need to think for us ... when they should rest ...

apa pun .. I love Mak & Abah forever ... saya dah ada anak ... saya tau macam mana perasaan mak dan abah ...

Sunday, July 11, 2010

can it be considered as salah guna masa?

salam ...

past few weeks ... i felt different ... something that i've never felt before .. takutnya rasa ... moga Allah bg saya peluang baiki diri ...

starting with accident dgn org bawak parang, lepas tu saya jadi trauma... org nampak saya macam ok.. tp almost a week i cannot hold my pen properly ... and i even signed the cheqs .. wrongly ... seriously .. i couldn't grip the pen properly ...

and i thought it would be temporary ... but i am becoming frightened easier ...

btw ... i've tendered my resignation and my last day in Prima will be on 2 Sept 2010 .. Insya Allah ... counting days is something that i hate the most ... but the time will fly and will never come back.. so appreciate your time well

Sekarang, saya rasa saya perlu bertindak dan berusaha .. saya sgt takut memikirkan apa akan jadi pada anak2 saya masa akan dtg , i've started to enforce no TV half hour before and after maghrib, solat berjamaah during maghrib, Al Quran recitation after Maghrib, these is not for the purpose of letting everyone know, just for my remembrance ...

Dear Kids, mama really hopes and prays that both of u will be anak2 yg soleh dan solehah ... mama jarang2 doa utk anak2 mama jadi pandai ... tapi mama harap anak2 mama jadi org2 yg soleh dan solehah .... yang beriman .. yg sentiasa dilindungi Allah ....

Tak sabar nak habis kerja .. nak duk rumah .. plus we have another bad new related to Mr Hubby's health ... so saya rasa bertanggungjawab utk menjaganya sepenuh hati san kudrat saya ...