Monday, November 23, 2009

hitam putih Kehidupan

Lihatlah sekitar alam
Dunia luas terbentang
Langit tinggi kebiruan
Pohon-pohon kehijauan
Hembusan bayu yang menyegarkan

Dengarkan di sana-sini
Beburung riang menyanyi
Berbunga aneka warna
Sumber kedamaian jiwa
Mensyukuri nikmat Maha Esa

Begitu berharga kehidupan ini
Bagi mereka yang tahu menghargai
Mengapa terdorong oleh perasaan
Kalau turutkan hati diri menjadi korban

Tiada yang dapat lari dari masalah diri
Hadapi lah dengan tenang
Tiap cabaran yang datang
Atasinya dengan keimanan

Sekadar buat renungan
Untukmu teman tersayang
Hitam putih masa depan
Sendirian menentukan
Hidup ini usah persiakan

lama nya x tulis

sejak2 ade facebook langsung melupakan blog .... felt very lonely today ..x tau napa ... sedih sangat ... 3 tahun yg membosankan di prima .. bila ye nak dpt keluar dr sini ...

nak lari ke korea .. tapi x de sape boleh bawak .. camne?

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

The life goes on

June ... two weeks of school holidays ... a week in Kl and another in KT ... my new nephew ... Muhammad Haziq was admitted to HSNZ in KT on Wed 3/6/2009. He was then admitted to ICU on Thursday nite. He is confirmed to has a hole in his heart. He was discharged from ICu on Saturday and was sent back to ICU on Friday nite. He is currently being prescribed with sleeping medicine. He is still in ICU .. i just can pray for him. But he is so small. He is 3 months old and weighted only 3.8 kg. Poor him.

Nothing much to write. It was so hot in KT. the max degrees was 44 at noon. There's no wind at all.

Went to KB for two days. Met with M Cik Zu (old neighbour). His son, who used to play with me when we was 5/6 is married to my ex-classmate. Hahhaha ... what a story...

Harris went to school (kindergarten) for the first time on Monday 15/6/2009. He was very excited in the morning. He woke up at 6. Today, he cried asking me not to go to work.

Arrrghhh ... i am so lazy to work.. just want to spend my time at home ... doing nothing... heheheh.. is it possibble?

Saturday, May 16, 2009

Dou You Know Him

Found this lyric in youtube .. sang by Mecca 2 Medina feat Raihan

Song title .. dou you know Him?


Sollallahu 'Ala Muhammad
Sollallahu 'Alaihi Wassalam

Do you know him?
His name is Rasulullah (SAW)
Do you know him?
His name is Habibullah
Do you know him?
His name is Sayfullah, who?
Saiyidina Mustaffa

Mecca2Medina give salam
Assalamualaikum
And the crew Raihan give salam
Assalamu'alaikum
All the way from Malaysia to the UK, USA, and Africa
All in Islam,
All over the world
We have to unite because of Allah and him
Who? Rasulullah (SAW)

Allah and the angels shower blessings on the Prophet (SAW)
So we should do it non stop and never stop it
Rasulullah (SAW) is the last messenger
A lamp giving light Allah summones
No one is nearer, clearer to Allah, SubhanAllah
Than our Maulana Habibullah, Sayfullah
The Pure who's purified, the only true guide
Who never ever lied
He must never be denied

If you want salvation
Cream of creation
Owner of the station
That only fit for one man
Peace be on him
Prophet Muhammad, the angels washed him
So that he would never sin
Cleansed his heart from sin
Getting ready for the start of Prophet hood
He stood high above his people
So noble and beautiful
The bringer of the Holy Quran is beautiful

If everyone's a champion, Queen B or Dapper Dan
Or some exaggerated title for their small achievement standings
Then best of creation has to get a mention
Do you hear me? Listen!
Too many miracles we nah go mention...why?
That will only serve as a distraction...and
Raise him to level of exultation..like
Call him soon of God or Son of Creation
AstagFirullah

Yes he was man, but he had so many qualities
Like wisdom, understanding, knowledge and generosity
Would rather starve himself and feed a next somebody
My beloved was the term used by the Almighty
To describe this humble orphan who raised his community
From idol worship, barbarism and ignorancy
To a level of intelect
What changed the course of history?
If everyone's a champion, Queen B or Dapper Dan
Or some exaggerated title for their small achievement standings
Then best of creation has to get a mention
Come Raihan and M2M tell everyone

The first light anticipated formulated
From the this bright light
The whole world was illuminated

Prophet Muhammad ibn Abdullah
The fruitful, dutiful servant of Allah SWT
The walking the Quran who moved the peaceful calm
Who taught the deen clean with his celestial charm
Prophesized, emphasized in the Gospel and Torah

Promised the highest heaven Jannatul Wasilah
A descendent of Ibrahim AS through Ishmael AS
May Allah SWT bless the Muslim ummah with the spiritul seal
Syaitan (laknatullah) wants him to be a mystery
But he's the most influential man in history

P.E.A.C.E Islam, Islam is all about peace
Assalamu'alaikum
Wa'alaikumussalam
P.E.A.C.E Islam, Islam is all about peace
M2M and Raihan in the house

Monday, April 27, 2009

Me, Myself n Mine

Arrrghhhh ... my entry started with sugh ....

Two weeks ago ... i was mc due to back pain .... three days ago i mc again .. this time shoulder pain ... my shoulder became so stiff that i couldn't manage to lift my arm .... i went to clinic... the doctor suggested me to have a massage. So i went for a massage... the massaeur said that my shoulder was still hard even after 30 minutes of session. Arrgghh ... Now , my thigh is so stiff ... aarrrggghhhh ...

it wasn't the pain that killing me .... but, it's the how the people around treat me whenever i took mc . I got 14 days medical leave to use. So as long as i'm within it .. please do not bother me .

I was expected to live for three months .. i've been living in the incubator for a month. These were what i've been told ... So even though i ate healthy food and did exercise ... My health won't be the same with others . I'm the first person to be infected whenever people around me got sick, but i wasn't sick all the time ... My hands, legs etc will go to numb whenever i sit or sleep in the same position for a long time. Whenever i got pregnant, my red blood cell count was never been good. I drink as much milk as possibble ... i ate as much fruits and vege as possibble. i ate everything ... fishes, red meat, white meat ... potatoes ... everything .. just to ensure that i'll stay healthy. I got migraine easily ...

But every time i got mc, there's certain people who will ask me, don't u take vitamin c? don't u do exercise? Sometimes i will ignore it ... but sometimes ... i felt very bothered about it ... i will just ignore them... i know my body, my helath and my capabilities very well ... it's my life after alll ... why should i've been bothered by those people ....

But i am still grateful... despite of these ... i am still considered as healthy person. Why? Alhamdulillah . I don't have any critical illness ... Alhamdulillah ... on and off to be sick ... Allah is forgiving me for the sins that i did .... Alhamdullillah ... Subhanallah ... Allahu Akbar...

Thursday, April 16, 2009

Me n HR

April is the month for me n Hr to quarrel ....

April First / Fool ... i felt like such a fool ... i departed from home at 7.45 am . Spent almost one and half hours in traffic jam ... reach PJ Hilton for Course scheduled at 9 pm ... 15 minutes later. As soon as i sat ... i didn't even take off my handbag, i received a call from one of HR staff ... actually i do like this staff since he's quite hardworking and doesn't even bother how people treat him .... but April First make me mad at him for the first time ... i remember his words clearly...

" K Zihan, Hari ni K zihan sepatutnya attend MIA Course kat PJ Hilton, tadi MIA call kata K Zihan tidak berada di PJ Hilton."

I was just came in, even the instructor just said hello to me, how should i answer him? ... i just answered " Dah ada dah ni." But truly i really mad. Can't he ask me first. 'K Zihan, Where are you? The MIA called. K Zihan belum sampai ye?' Or is he thinking that i'm going to escape the course costing RM750? am i that crazy... if i really want to spend the Co money ... i will go to many courses as possibble... the knowledge is free after all for me... why should i escape such opportunity? ....

April 6 ... i was just came in to the office after 2 days course and one day EL. When i punched-in, in the morning, my punch card has been written A/L on first of April .. i just let it go... around 9 am .. Our Inspector Gadget called.

"Pn azihan, Puan Azihan AL on first kan? Saya tak dapat cari Puan punya surat cuti, boleh tolong hantar kat Hr dept tak?"

"Boleh tolong check tak mana saya pergi on the first dengan staf Hr yang lain?"

"Iyelah, saya tanya kenapa nak marah? Puan cuti on the first kan?"

"Saya tak cuti on the first ... please check with the others."

"Yelah, orang tanya, tak perlu marah-marah." He hanged up just like that ... i was very mad ... really .... It was me who supposed to hang up that call since he just said whatever he wants without asking.


April 16 ... I came at 8.20 .... i just took my drink when one of my colleague said .. " K Zihan .. Inspector Gadget suruh K Zihan hantar borang cuti before 3pm." I took EL on 14 .. Harris caught fever, I was not feeling well on 15, i took MC ... I was just in for few minutes ... I don't know ... Why are they picking at me? .

Sometimes i feel really sad... when i don't even bother what other people are doing and always try to help others .. to ease their burden .... why on earth they're trying to fight with me? i just don't understand ...


Maybe .. it's part of Allah trial on me... How patience i am ... just bear with it Azihan .... Astaghfirullahalazim.....

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

I have a serious problem....

I don't know how to write it ... i think the problem is visiting me again... hahhaha what a nice word i used. I felt very lazy these days. Especially in doing office works. At home, nothing much to do actually ... just ignore all the headache at home...

I don't know whether this is a coincidence or not, but i can see that whenever i'm in messy mood ... the same thing happened to my sis ... Nae ... poor her .. just pray for her that everything will come and go smoothly .... cincaaaa ...

It's been almost a month since my last entry ... it's not that i had been busy ... but i had been lazy ... hhahahahah

so ... any good or bad news in between? ...

Harris caught a fever 2 days ago... his temp hit 39.1 degrees .... the most active person in this house caught fever .... but fortunately it's only for a day... i kept him wet and cold the whole night ... fortunately ... the temp went down to 36.7 on the day after ... Alhamdulillah ...

Went to MIA course in PJ on 1-2/4/2009 ... it was really cracking my head ... i didn't even know what i had practiced before this... lots of things to catch up ... still less time n guidance...

what else? miss my mgmt meeting on 1/4 ... took El on 3/4 ... not feeling good after cracking my brain during the course and cramping my body in the traffic jam... had an argument with one of HR staff .. he said i didn't apply for my leave on first of April... Check it again ... where did i go on the first .. it's not that i went to the course using my own name... it's under co's name plus under HR approval..... herkkkk ...

Still attending the Kursus Haji .. one of the partcipant said that her appeal had been rejected ... we didn't even appeal yet .... the money is yet to be enough plus ... we kept on spending .... aaaahhhh .. i just hope that if we can't make it this year ...i just hope that Allah will invite us to His home next year ... really want to ... it's really touching every time we did the talbiah ... i miss Him so much ... wants to visit Baitullah as soonest as i can ... i just want to be the good person. Just want Allah to forgive me on every wrongdoings i had done .... Insya Allah .. Amin..

anything else? ... hmmm we're going to buy azrah an electronic piano .. cost almost RM3K with 12 installment .... i don't even know whether my decision is right or wrong ... aaahhhhh .... confuse....

i had a backpain today .... really not comfortable with it ... got mc ... miss another Mgmt Meeting even though i had prepared all the materials needed.. not sure what had happened during the meeting ... will know about it tmrw.... just pray for the best ....

Insya Allah .... with the God will

Thursday, March 19, 2009

I've been busy ...

2009 ..i don't even have time to think whether i'm demotivated or not. Unlike 2008, this year has been a very busy year for me. Starting from January till today ...

First week of March
Right after we came back from PD, still in happy mood, we had been raid by IRB on Monday - looking for all documents covering Y/E 2002-2007. From Monday to Tuesday I've been busy with all the reports for Mgmt Meeting on Wednesday. The second Mgmt meeting i had attended. My part only on KPI. But, it's not easy to come with the KPI. I've to close my monthly accounts, I've to extract all the Purchases and Sales made in KG and from there only i can came out with the KPI. I planned to finish my Nov & Dec Report which had been delayed for months, but the system did not operated so well. I ended up to finish only my Nov report.
Saturday, i went to my first Kursus Haji at UPM Mosque. The speaker is quite good. But it's still early. I just hope that i can learn and Allah will help me to easily learn every step of perfoming Haj. Insya Allah. Right after the Kursus, I went to the office for a while to finish my January Accounts which is supposed to be finished on Friday, however due to malfunction of the internet & server connection, i couldn't manage to made it done. We had satay Kajang Haji Samuri at Kesas Highway for dinner. Sunday, brought the kids to MMU swimming pool for swimming class. After that we went to Bdr Bkt Puchong to have lunch. After lunch we went for CRV test drive. We're actually wanted to test drive Civic & Altis. But both of them not available for test drive on that day.

Second week of March
9th was public holiday but wan was working that day. Nothing much except i was still busy with my works for the whole week. I couldn't even manage to check my facebook thoroughly. Weekend, went for second session of Kursus Haji. Right after that we headed to KL and had lunch in Kuchai Lama before went to MATTA Fair. This time, we didn't buy any package , but the tickets cost to Vienna for 4 are less that RM9k. but we couldn't go this year. I met ZZ, ex-U colleague. She's still the same. with the same guy. i wondered whether are they already married? There were performances during the fair, I was attracted to Korean songs of course. Spent time until 6 pm. My husband and i had massage session by the blind associations. We went out for dinner at Mcd later that night. Sunday, the same schedule, kids got swimming class, but more on Azrah since Harris is quite playful. We went for Eejai's wedding reception in Damansara before finally rest at home.

Third Week of March
Monday, azrah's on a week holiday. still busy, with many staffs on holiday, i've to work doubled for the next meeting on Wednesday. I had to finish my Feb acc. I didn't get the memo for the meeting, the meeting was rescheduled to earlier time on Wednesday. Even though with the time and manpower constraint, i managed to finish it. But there was still question i couldn't manage to answered. That's my homework.


That's all... there's no life at all... wasn't it? had been busy for the entire days in 2009.

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

Monday, March 2, 2009

Picture Summary Family Day PD 28/2 - 1/3/09

Tak sempat nak mengarang .. ni part 1 of the pictures summary.. sbbnya.. these are from my cam... akan upload lagi dr sumber yg lain...









































we won family plg sporting ...